This is what frustration actually feels like from the inside: every tiny thing hitting ten out of ten, the spinning red ring, the urge to snap when someone says “calm down.” But it’s also about learning, that the anger is a signal, not a sentence, and that I can take a breath and load back into peace. I wrote it to make that struggle feel less lonely, and a little funny.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I got a storm in my thumbs, I'm typing too fast
Autocorrect betrays me, like, why you do that?
Shoelace in my shoe, and my shoe's in my way
And my brain's yelling "GO!" but the world says "not today"

Microwave beeps, dog barks, my phone hits 1%
Every little "tiny thing" feels 10 out of 10
I'm smiling for the camera, but I'm glitching inside
Like a game that keeps freezing right before the high-five

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm not mad at you… I'm mad at the stuck
At the door that won't open, at the "almost" and "ugh"
My chest is a drumline, my thoughts are a swarm
I'm a tornado in a hoodie, trying not to perform

[Chorus]
'Cause I'm buffering, spinning in a little red ring
Say "calm down" and my whole brain does the opposite thing
I'm "fine" in the caption, I'm "WHY?!" in my head
It's the sigh, it's the eye-roll, it's the heat in my chest
But I'm learning, hold up, take a breath, let it pass
Turn the pressure into power, not a punch, not a crash
Yeah I'm buffering… but I'm still here, still me
Give me a second, watch me load into peace

[Verse 2]
Group chat: "seen." No reply. Now my mind makes a movie
Plot twist: I'm the villain, and the villain is moody
I start building a case like a courtroom of feelings
But the facts are just vibes and my logic is reeling

I want to be heard, not louder than everyone else
I want to be brave without burning myself
So I name it: frustration, this spark in my ribs
It's a signal, not a sentence, not a "that's just how it is"

[Bridge]
What if I pause and get curious instead?
What if my anger's just scared underneath what it said?
What if I trust that I don't have to win?
I can open my hands, I can soften my skin
I can ask for a minute, I can step out the frame
I can try a new story that still honors the flame

[Chorus]
'Cause I'm buffering, spinning in a little red ring
Say "calm down" and my whole brain does the opposite thing
I'm "fine" in the caption, I'm "WHY?!" in my head
It's the sigh, it's the eye-roll, it's the heat in my chest
But I'm learning, hold up, take a breath, let it pass
Turn the pressure into power, not a punch, not a crash
Yeah I'm buffering… but I'm still here, still me
Give me a second, watch me load into peace

[Outro]
Still here. Still me.
Loading…
Peace.